I mean I love porn, don't get me wrong, it's usually a facet of my daily life. I don't understand why girlfriends become angry with their partners for watching porn. I feel like saying 'ok fine but you need to be his pornstar then'. Maybe I'm just oversexed but you'd never guess because the most sex I have us with myself. And it's fabulous.
Speaking of porn I also love food porn. I've been making sexually inappropriate comments on my own status of Facebook. Humorous banter between me, myself, and I.
The best part is that I'm speaking explicitly sex on a picture of a delicious looking sandwich.
If I didn't have myself to entertain me all day with comedy I'd be lost.
By the way. I hate vanity's position in our society. I hate being told I'm pretty and wish I could wear a fugly mask that actually fooled people while they got to know me. People have predisposed judgements even if they can't admit it because at the end of the day we are human. We are not flawless.
I definitely can say that being handsome initially causes attraction. I'm not a liar. But that initial attraction is fleeting to me...as soon as he opens his mouth it could all be forgotten. Perfect bodies are so annoying it makes me feel self conscious. I've always wanted my stomach to be flat and defined. But in reality I don't give a shit to try for that because I've so many more interesting things I could occupy my time with. Intellectual things that don't fade like beauty. If a guy has worked so hardly to achieve this perfect body I can't see myself in a relationship with them because right off the bat we've a large dissimilarity. I am not vain and I wish I could makedown my face so the closest I come is hair stuck in a cap and nothing on my face. Even then I usually get the 'piece of meat' reaction from men. Yuck. I'd get really fat if I could but my body doesn't respond to food the same way it did when I was 10. I was a cool fattie then that could sail under the radar. Now I eat three double cheeseburgers and a large order if chili cheese fries in one sitting- I'm lucky to gain a pound. And it sucks. In African cultures it is often a sign if beauty and wealth to be large to a certain degree. I don't even bother to match my outfit anymore. Fuck it. And fuck all that makeup and maintenance.
